Thursday, 30 August 2007


Things I overheard in Maidenhead (#1 in an occasional series)

So here's the scene: it's about five o'clock in Sainsbury's, and I'm by the fresh bread/patisserie shelves. A woman is beside me with her little boy; he must be about five or six. He's just run up to her holding a modest plastic carton of mini chocolate muffins.

Boy: Mummy, I want these. I like these ones.
Woman: No, not those.
Boy: But Mummy, I want these ones now!

[Woman ignores him]

Boy: Pleasemummypleasemummyplease!

[Boy starts jumping up and down, grizzling]

Woman: Come on, we'll have these instead.

And she leads him over to the other side of the cake area, and chooses absolutely huge muffins, slick with oil. A big pack. Cakes the size of your fist. Cakes that say, eat me and you'll eat nothing else all day, oversized in the same way that big spiders and moths are scary because somehow, their large size is just plain wrong.

And I blinked, twice, and carried on squeezing the bread.

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The sound of silence

I went to my first ever Quaker meeting on Sunday. I've been curious about Quakers for a long time - my preference for styles of worship oscillates between the full drama of High Church, and the quiet simplicity of Iona - but I'd never actually been to a Quaker meeting.

There were a lot of first-timers like me at the meeting at Greenbelt, and we were given a brief explanation of what to expect by a member of the Cheltenham Quakers. It seemed straightforward enough in principle: Quakers wait in silence and stillness, allowing themselves to become open to an awareness of God's presence. If moved to speak (not the same as speaking 'in the Spirit') then they do so, but otherwise, there is no spoken liturgy.

Needless to say, it was a lot harder than that.

First off, there were obvious distractions - being in an unfamiliar room, amongst mostly unfamiliar people, under novel circumstances. Stomachs rumbled, people fidgeted, bizarrely, Mika's Big Girl (You are Beautiful) played on loop in my brain. Halfway though, a group of drummers began a loud sound check on the Arena stage; waiting for an awareness of God felt like straining to hear a voice on a bad phone line. I ended up simply praying, which was enough to turn my thoughts way from the other sounds and intrusions, and whilst I didn't feel that God imparted any specific words of ministry, it was enough to feel that I'd had time to be still - something that I often feel that I miss in 'normal' Church.

I came away feeling refreshed, and with the feeling that, for something as deceptively simple as shutting up for an hour, it took a lot of effort and I'd barely scratched the surface of the wealth of experience that it could offer. If I had to pick a denomination from scratch, then the Quakers certainly tick many of the boxes, but I'm not sure if I'm ready to give up the familiar comfort of the Anglican church that I'm so used to. Maybe that's the challenge to myself.

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